And then the numbness set in

The big one's finally done. I thought I'd be the happiest girl in the world. But then the numbness set in. And I can't rest until the results are out. I hate this anticipation, I hate the uncertainty.

I got the hospital of my choice, but that again won't matter until I pass. So I dont really know how to feel. But gladness is knowing my girl friends are all there too! wee.

They say confidence, happiness is something you give yourself. I probably should not be so easily affected by random words people say. But it hurts when it's somebody you really like. I probably ought to learn to be stronger. I really wish sometimes I'm better at hiding emotions. And show the world my biggest smile even when I'm dying inside.

P/s: i got a call from li late last night. I'm so so so so touched and happy! thanks babe.. cu soon!